I
read an interesting blog
(Ethics for doing Good) which
inspired me to write this:
I
do not think God makes mistakes, but this would be bad for God (no mistakes
means no learning means no growth). Let me correct myself: "God makes no
mistakes in the area we humans can understand."
Vulnerability
has to do with self-esteem and how I perceive the others especially the
offender. If a little child shouts the worst insult at me most likely I will
not feel insulted, but if the president in a kind voice would say:"Oigen,
I thought you could do better!" I might not be able to sleep for a night
or two. I assume you get my point. But for me the outside is not important,
because I cannot control it. Don’t get me wrong, the outside is important not
not in connection WITH "my life" but rather as a mirror OF my life.
What I mean is that I live basically in my (inner) world and the outer world is
an indication of what I have to attend to and what I have achieved.
If
I am angered by my neighbor, he behaves in a way which creates a resonance in my
inner. If it is anger for example, it is something I have to attend to, or if
it is something I like, it shows me what I have achieved. And for your brainies
out there this resonances changes. What gives me comfort now (meeting with
drinking bodies) might make me sick at a later state of my development.
Years
back, when it was time to go to the Philippines, God lured me
into it by placing love on my path. We westerners tend to follow our heart,
but because I am not a heart person rather a mind person, I also needed an
argument to follow my hear. I got the argument and then followed my heart.
In
a way which I did not realize at first, it was like being taken out from one
petri dish and placed into a different one. From one of the leading countries
of the world and time (Germany
2005) I was placed in a location with fast differences.
Whatever
I will write might sound judgmental, but this is not my intention. If I apply
the mirror technique described earlier, I have to start crying. But then things
we do not see, not necessarily do not exist. It is a complicated sentence, but
I like it. What I like less is the realization I just had.
I
used to apply the mirror technique on specific issues like lets say
punctuality, which is a big issue here too, but I was referring to the big
picture. Hmmm judgmental again. Do I know if God prefers a certain petri dish
(like Germany/US) or 3rd world countries like the Philippines? I am engraved
with the German way of life, society, work and the like and hence the
Philippine way in a way is the one I compare it too and it falls short of
course. Now you could say "Why not go back?" I think that is is not
the question and not the point. I am here for a certain reason, and I have to
fulfill a certain task. I mean I need a realization, need to learn what I came
here for!
Maybe
I am a slow learner.
When
I started to write I had a different intention of the outcome. I wanted to
write for you but ended up writing for me.
So
what about this vulnerability?
I
think on a physical level we all are vulnerable. What happens if we are hurt?
In a way the other shows us our limits. Is that bad? I had an interesting
realization this week and it is connected to what we are talking about here: "In our comfort zone we grow fat, if
we leave it, we grow personality".
So
why are we hurt if someone tells us the truth?
Thinking
about it shows me two options: 1: My ego tells me "I am better!" and
my ego feels falsely accused or 2: I did not give my best. If I give my best it
was all I could do, so even if the president is kind with his words, he is
wrong. And let's be honest, deep inside we "know" the truth and how
often we fall short of our best - but hope for the best.
And
what is the connection between spirituality and vulnerability?
For
me spiritual does not mean doing good in a sense of charity, of giving. Spirituality
means living an inner life parallel to the our life or at least of being aware
of the inner side of life which in the out often mean letting the others be
where and what they are just now. And
this at least at the beginning of the journey means being more vulnerable.
The
ego learns to make itself strong or makes us to feel strong and with this
strength the outer world loses it challenge and we evolve to become a spiritual
being, a spiritual baby. And babies are very vulnerable!
So
the vulnerability Callaghan speaks of in his blog is a sign of mankind
evolving? Yes!
To
become more spiritual?
I
am not sure. In the last century Sri Harold Klemp, the leader
of Eckankar talked about that mankind is
at the brink of evolving to the next level. A few years later USSR went down
history lane, war started in former Yugoslavia and other places all over the
world then even the war against terrorism started (which was - and still is -
an attempt to instill fear into our hearts and minds). I do not think mankind as a whole evolved. I
see it rather like in a chemical reaction. You add a substance to a solution and
the more you ad the closer you come to a saturation point where the reaction
starts. Or you ad the base substance and the system moves away from the
saturation point.
For
me this is not good or bad. It simply IS.
I
think God infused the base substance and we moved away from the saturation
point.
What
does that mean for you or me, for those on a spiritual adventure?
Nothing!
Maybe
it is even good. Basically nothing changed. IF mankind would have evolved, a
lot of things would have changed. Imagine the driving force no longer would be
fear but reason. Imagine you are not hurt if someone insults you but you stop
and think "Why does he say that?" Or "What is God telling me
through this person?"
You
might even think you have reached the end of your journey! Richard Bach the
author of Jonathan Livingston Seagull and Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah
(1977), made me realize the world
is perfect as it is (like the field for a ball game) and Eckankar made me
realize God loves us so much IT allows us to make the same mistake again and
again until we are no longer vulnerable and start learning.
Good insight, Oigen. This is the first time I've seen your blog. I look forward to reading more of your interesting titles. Hope you visit mine: http://river-tree-whispers.blogspot.com/. It is mostly poetry.
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